Evening.

Assalamualaikum.

I'm sorry i've been busy with all this. I didn't even got the chance to call my parents. All i did was going to class, eat and sleep. Everyday is such a tiring day since everything was so pack. Fyi, i'm already in the second semester. Alhamdulillah my result for the 1st semester was alright thought i was not in the dean's list. Everybody want to be in the list right? & so do i. It did frustrate me but i realized its my fault, i was not focus & spend most of my time with lying on my bed doing nothing. 

Since now i'm in the 2nd semester, i'll work harder & need to blend in with some new friends since i know no one in the class, it's a frustrating. The subject was alright & a bit hard. Most of the lecturer are so nice since there always a game in a class. In my class, i'll always sit next to my new friend named Fifi, she's so polite & have that small voice. We'll sit the very front in the class & next to her will be Fatin. We're in DBS 2A, most of my classmates are very friendly. The one who's not so in to talk to them is me. Yeah I did have a rough time. Like i said "i'm trying to blend in" & in need to get rid of my shy-shy-cat.

This post named "Evening" because i'm writing this in the evening. It's very quiet since there's only three of us left in our house and two of them fell asleep so yeah it's lonely. I'm actually missing one of my friend who have just left two days ago named Hurul Ain Zahra, you could search her at facebook of course. To me, she's like my closest friend in Melaka. We used to fight i guess but she'll always be my closest friend.When we were in the 1st semester, we're sitting next to each other and she did helps me a lot in Business Math. I'm that kind of person who is totally sucks in math but because of her it changed. I got 85% in test 1 for that subject. It's my first A for math! How grateful i am. All through that 1st semester we learnt, cried, laughed, frustrated, doing everything together except sleeping & bathing. 

The day she left got me burst into tears & another fact about me i'm not that kind of girl who loves to cry. Even my mom called me "hati batu". Those tears just meant that i love her as one of my friend. Ok that's enough or i'll be crying. It's Saturday btw. My mom posted me a box of chocolate & it have been 4 days, the most saddest part is i didn't receive it yet. Whether someone else have taken it or the one who carried it had ate it. Bla bla bla it's seems like November hates me since lots of sad and frustrating things happened in this month. Wanna list?

-I have to leave penang

-Didn't sit in the same class with my friend

-Didn't get the chance to go to langkawi

-Our house is so quiet

-My friend left me

-Didn't receive chocolate

-Expensive books

-Run out of money

-& right now i'm freaking hungry!

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Thank you for reading. Adios & sayonara!

24/5/13

Assalamualaikum stalker, and hey. How's life?

So yeah, i got not specific title for this post. It's been awhile and there's lots of thing happening in my life since then. Firstly, i'm currently in Melaka, furthering my studies in Business Management at UIC but under UiTM. Alhamdulillah, MARA is the one who bear my studies here. U got no idea how proud i am to call myself as one of the UiTM's student. To most of my friends, i'm sorry because i came here without meeting/telling you guys first. It's not that i don't wanna share this with you guys but yknow how fast time flies by and we don't even realize it. It's been a month since i've moved to Melaka and thank God nothing bad happened to me. I got some new friends here from different country and most of them are nice, they're here for me and i'm here for them. I'll post their pictures later, scroll down please.

I'm living in a condominium called Beverly Hills Condominium at A' Famosa Resort. I know, this place is famous. Around UIC, we got Water Theme Park, Cowboy Town and much more. The place is beautiful, and the people around here are friendly and nice. Me and my friends are living at Level 13 in this condo, just imagine if the lift breaks down, masyaAllah. In our house, we got 2 rooms and this rooms could accommodate 10 girls. It's fun when we got to live with new friends from different places. Two weeks ago, we got an orientation program run for 3 days, for new students which is coordinated by seniors. The program was freaking-fun! Most of the seniors are funny and friendly, the program made my day. Thank you seniors. Okay, i'm wordless already, i'll upload a photo of my friends.

Btw, I would like to congrats a guy named Justin Bieber for his awards that he won, tho he didn't read my blog but it's okay. Congratulations big bro! I'm so proud of you Justin, u deserved these awards more than anybody. 3 awards, 2 performances in 1 night. Perfect. Top Male Artist, Top Socialist Artist, and Milestone award :))

That's all for today. Thank you for reading. Assalamualaikum and take care. An advice from me: Love your life tho it's miserable. Adios stalker x

His eyes is perfect.

Pukul 1 pagi.

Assalamualaikum. Terasa lama betul tak kemaskini blog kesayangan ni. Ok, alhamdulillah aku dengan keluarga masih sihat, dan orang-orang sekeliling aku pon nampak bahagia dengan kehidupan masing-masing. Tarikh hari nih dah masuk 5/3/2013. Cepat masa berlalu kan? Dalam beberapa hari lagi, aku dengan kawan-kawan aku yang lain akan terima keputusan SPM kitorang. Ya Allah, berdebar betul rasanya. Apa keputusan aku nanti? 5A? 4A? 3A? 8G? Astaghfiruallhalazim, kenapa lah fikir negatif sangat ni. Aku cuma mampu tawakal sebab aku dah cuba yang terbaik. Aku harap aku dengan kawan-kawan dapat keputusan yang cemerlang. Dan aku juga berharap yang aku takkan menangis bila dapat keputusan nanti, nak jimat air mata. Asyik menangis ja, malu k.

Buat masa ni, aku masih bekerja di McD, berhampiran kawasan rumah aku. Yalah, sementara nak tunggu keputusan SPM kan, haih lambat sungguh. Seronok sangat kerja situ, kebanyakan krew peramah, suka sakat aku, perli aku, cuit-cuit. Nanti bila aku pergi sambung belajar mesti rindu krew-krew McD. Kadang-kadang tuh terasa hati jugak sebab bahasa diorang kasar-kasar. Biasa lah orang penang. Tapi aku tak pernah ambil kisah pon. Janji gaji aku masuk setiap hujung bulan, boleh belanja kawan-kawan yang banyak berjasa dengan aku kan? :)

Jom cakap pasal cinta-cintun pulak? Ada seorang lelaki ni, nama dia Muhamad Aiman Afiq, sopan orangnya, kacak, berkulit putih, tinggi lampai. Boleh pulak dia ter-suka dekat aku yang tak cukup inci ni. Hampir setahun aku membujang sebab... sebab apa? Entah. Aku jual mahal sangat kot. Ok, taknak la cerita kisah lama kan, buat tambah sakit dekat hati ja. Tapi, Aiman ni dia lain sikit la. Cara dia layan aku, betul-betul buat aku cair. Ok, bila kami keluar, dia yang tarikkan kerusi, dia yang bayar, kalau boleh aku duduk diam ja macam patung, semua benda dia nak buat. Ya Allah, untungnya aku kalau dia mampu layan aku macam tuh sampai masa aku ke liang lahad. Tapi, seperti yang kita semua tahu, tiada orang yang sempurna di atas Bumi ni.

Berita baru! Kami sekeluarga sangat gembira dengan kehadiran ahli keluarga kami yang terbaru, namanya Motet. Anak kepada Gibu dan Rambo hahaha, anak kucing la. Kalau anak orang, itu kena tunggu aku kahwin dulu. Mama putih, papa hitam, hasilnya anak warna kelabu. Dalam banyak-banyak anak kucing yang pernah lahir dalam rumah kami, dia la yang paling comel. Manja sangat. Kalau dekat kedai, dalam RM600-700 jugak. Bulu tebal, mata biru, ekor panjang. Kenapa nama Motet? Sebab masa kecil-kecil perut dia bulat, rajin sangat minum susu. Kucing parsi memang benih tak berapa kuat, anak pon seekor ja. Buat masa sekarang, ada satu ja gambar dia, *cari gambar kucing.

Comel? Baiklah, semua benda aku dah cerita. Alhamdulillah, buat masa ni semua perkara berjalan dengan lancar. Aku sangat bersyukur dengan setiap nikmat yang Allah telah kurniakan kepada aku. Oh ya, kenapa tajuk "pukul 1 pagi"? Sebab sekarang pukul 1 pagi. Mengantuk dan letih, sebab aku baru balik kerja. K jaga diri *lambai tangan.

A day with my family.

Just gonna post some photos. Thank you for visiting, i love you.

Boyfriend.

Muhamad Aiman Afiq B. Muhamad Pauzi, I love you. Thank you for everything. As long as you love me, i'll be by your side. And um, please stay? Forever? ♥

P/S: I'm freaking wordless.

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His respond after reading this post:

THE END.

My Steamed Fish!

P/S: This dish was made by me, for the first time( And it was super-delicious!). Thanks for visiting! Assalamualaikum.

Lunch at Johnny's Restaurant.

Assalamualaikum. Omg it's 2013 already! And yeahh I got no special post for 2013. But i'm still thankful to Allah SWT for giving me the chance to breath on this brand new year. "Brand new year" sounds weird lol. I'm eighteen, but umm not officially. If you know what I mean. Currently still working at McD Alma. The customers was kinda rude sometimes, used to be cursed by someone but ugh it's his fault excuse me? "Customer Always Right" Stick to that word! Okay.

Last wednesday, me and my BFF, Syazana Aqila went to Jusco to have our lunch together and share stories. Since we have ended our highschool years, so um it's hard to meet. We have our lunch at Johnny's Restaurant. And i've never realized that the restaurant was actually exist somewhere in Jusco. Plus, we also did some grocery shopping. Gonna post some photos of us..... K enjoy stalking.

P/S: THANK YOU FOR READING, I LOVE YOU.

A perfect day.

Assalamualaikum. Just gonna post some photos of me and my BFF spending our time together yesterday (23/12/12). Having our lunch at De Pauh Garden. And then off to Jusco Perda to watch movies and stuffs.

My Bieber List.

Assalamualaikum. So um, today I would love to update about my addiction, his name is Justin Drew Bieber. Though we've never met, he still inspires me in many ways. If you're one of the haters, it's okay. Just get the hell out from my cute little blog. I would update about things or maybe facts about Justin according to my memory, no books, no internet. Here we go...

- Justin was born in London, Ontario, Canada at 12:56am in St Judes Hospital.

- Pattie Mallette is his mum, and Jeremy Bieber is his dad.
- He has a little sister and brother Jazmyn and Jaxon.
- Justin has/had a dog called Sammy.

- Justin's bestfriends from even before the fame where Ryan Butler and Chaz Somers. 

- Justin grew up in Stratford.

- Scooter Braun is Justin’s manager.

- Scooter found Justin on youtube because he clicked on the wrong video, and Justin’s came up instead.

- Justin dated Caitlin Beadles for a while, after Caitlin he had a little thing going with Jasmine Villegas and  then after that he officially started dating Selena Gomez.

- Justin had a hamster called PAC, but he recently gave it away to a fan

- Justin had a snake called Johnson that he took down the red carpet with him at an awards show

- Justin has six albums. My World, My World 2.0, My World Acoustic, Never Say Never (remixes), Under The Mistletoe and Believe.

- Justin’s favourite cereal is Captain Crunch

- Justin’s favourite candy use to be Sour Patch Kids, but then fans use to give them to him all the time to the point that he didn’t like them as much as he use to.

- Justin is left handed.

- Justin has never won a Grammy, he has only been nominated

- Justin met a young girl called Avalanna, he ‘married’ her and he flew her out to see him often, Avalanna recently passed away and he dedicated his first Believe tour concert to her.

- Justin is the second most followed person on Twitter behind Lady Gaga.

- Justin’s house is in Calabasas, California.

- Justin was on the cover of Forbes magazine

- Justin got the scar on his face from when he was a kid. He said he thinks it makes him look like a ‘badass’

- Justin made the word “Swaggy” and called Scooter up at 3am in the morning to confirm that is was spelt “Swaggy” not “Swaggie”

- Justin’s parents split when he was around 10 months old

- Justin original youtube account was ‘kidrauhl’

- Justin has the most viewed youtube channel

- The first video that was uploaded onto Justin’s kidrauhl channel was of him singing “So Sick by Neyo” the video was originally uploaded so his grandmother on his fathers side would be able to watch it. But it quickly went viral, and that’s where his career started.

- Justin received his Fisker Karma from Scooter on the Ellen DeGeneres show, as his 18th birthday present.

Okay, that's it. All come at the top off my head. Not much. I bet most beliebers know lots than this. Thank you for reading and visiting my blog! I love you. Assalamualaikum and may you have a very nice day :) x

The end of 2012.

Assalamualaikum to my dearest awesome stalker.

So how was your day? I bet it was full with fun and joy. Just say Alhamdulillah for every moment you live. It's not the happiness that we're supposed to count in our life, it's about the things happening around us. Well, yknow what I mean. So, today is 4th Dec 2012. Yes peeps, 2012 is about to end! And for me, i've ended my highschool moment which is full with memories, and stuffs. I'll be missing my classmates for sure, though we always fight againts each other. Iqa & Nana! I won't forget both of you till my last breath. And yeah, the-so-called SPM moment, it was fucking depressing but tralala i'm free baby. I've done my best and InsyaAllah I could achieve them with flying colours.

It's December and i've ended my highschool years, like I just said just now. Does it means, i'm actually gaining my freedom? No, I don't think so. But freedom-for-awhile, yes. Would have to wait untill college moment fuck my life. Since 28th Nov, I've been working at McD, near Autocity. Which means, i've been working there for a week. Nothing to complain, everyone loves me, I guess hahahaha. All of the crew were so kind and friendly, they treat me nice. They make me laugh. It's like they're my new friends, I mean they were so kinda replaced my friends in highschool. And yes we fight sometimes. But no, I'm not that kind of person who forgot old friends once a person get a new friend.

In McD, i'm the runner. I look at the screen that hang somewhere, and then the products would appear, all I have to do is take the product and put them on a tray. It's kinda hard but once you used to it, it's a piece of cake. The moment when there's lots of customer, omg I really hate that moment. For seriously it's killing me. But when i'm thinking of my salary while doing my job, everything goes very well and the manager would praise me. And yeahh, I'll be very glad, and wink wink at other crew hahahaha. No, kidding. I won't do such thing at other crew, i'm a good girl. Okay I lied. But I'm a good girl.

Next, let's talk about my love story. My relationship status went from "single" to "still single". It's been months, and i'm still alive! One of the prove that I could live without someone called boyfriend. I'm born without you, means I can live without you. So, to those girls who thinks "I can't live without him." Get up! Open your eyes! Shake your ass! *Not important. Move on, you can do it, you'll be okay without him. Okay. Hmm idk, i'm not sure whether i'm ready or not to be in a relationship, well um there's a big scar yknow. A very big. I ignored all this guy who would love to treat me right, am I stupid? Well, maybe. I do have a big crush on someone at my school, but it's just for fun, his name is Syazani. He's too handsome for me. Every time we bump, there would be a very big smile on my face. Everyday when i'm on my way back home from school, i'll watch him from the bridge. No, he didn't notice me at all. To be with him was like... no chance at all? A guy like him, a girl like me, never. Pathetic and sad, yeah I know.

So, i'll turn eighteen in August 2013. They said, eighteen was like the most awesome teenager's year, really? Why? Because you're allowed to watch all those one colour movies? Well yknow what I mean. No, I don't think so. I bet most guy have watched those movies though they're not allowed. Hahahahahahaha okay i'm wordless already. That's all for today. May you all have a very good time in your life! Thanks for reading. Assalamualaikum.

Weird?

Only a letter.

A LETTER FROM ME TO A FRIEND.

Dear friend, I can’t believe you can judge me and act like everything is okay. It’s not. You’re suppose to be my friend. A friend I can trust and go to when I’m falling apart. Except you sit there, talk bad about me, and judge me. Is that really what you think of me? Is that how you show your friends that you care? I’m not a bad person and you’re not better than me.Yes, I admit I’ve made mistakes. I did things I’m not proud of. I use to be someone else. I’m trying so hard to right those wrongs and to make sure I don’t make those mistakes again. I’m trying to not be that person I hate. I’m trying to show everyone that I have changed. It hasn’t been an easy road.At times people stumble and fall back into their old habits, that’s what I did. I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry that it’s so easy to give into temptation. I’m sorry that I’m not perfect. Your judgement doesn’t make me feel any better. Your judgement doesn’t right my wrongs. Your judgement shows the type of person you are and the type of friend you are.I’m stronger than yesterday. I’ll keep trying to improve until I’m the best I can be. I’m not going to give up, but thank you for showing me where we stand.

THANKS FOR READING MY BULLSHIT.
Assalamualaikum. 

SPM is around the corner.

Assalamualaikum. As we all know, SPM is very near to us. Just about a few weeks to go and I'm done with school. I don't know if I should be happy or nervous. I extremely want the school to end faster but at the same time, I wanna walk outta Highschool Bukit Mertajam with straight A's in hand. I don't feel confident at all because of my trial exam results. They are bad. No, not good enough. I really hope my friends and I could ace the exam with flying colours.

If only people know how much I want to make my parents proud, they will come to me and promise me to teach me till the end of the world. I really want to study that hard but I got no one to ask if I do not understand a simple thing. As always, I wil give up and close the books because I know I can't do it. Was trying to keep this heart that strong and put a wall between diligent and lazy. The wall is falling down and now I'm between them. And with the weakest heart, I choose lazy.

I am too easy to fall and I have no one to catch me back. I need someone who will always be with me and lend his/her shoulder to me. I want that someone, I need that someone. Desperately. I swear I want to catch  that at least 5As or 6As but  now I know it's not that easy. How should I go through this tough moment? I have planned everything but I am worried if I can't even follow the plans very well. Anyway, I pray for all the 95's . Do well in your spm okay.

"You can take everything I have. You can break everything I am. Like I am made of glass, like I am made of paper." - Demi Lovato ♥

P/S: I need free hugs.

Someday...

Assalamualaikum and hello guys. Thanks for visiting my blog. So, me and my friend was like talking about our future. Suddenly, one of my friend asked me a question "Someday Justin will stop singing or maybe died, what will actually happen to you?" So this is my answer:

One day Justin will stop singing. Someday when i'll have children and grandchildren, my grandchildren will read the news and they will say "Granny, Justin Bieber died. Who is he?" Then i'm gonna go to my room and look at my stuff, CDs and tears will begin to flow from my eyes. I'll look at thousands of magazines, his pictures and read his books. I'll remember the day when I first heard One Time. I'll remember my blog and tumblr that I used to run that was dedicated only to him. I'll remember all the great people that I met on the internet only thanks to Justin. I'll remember all the fights I had with haters. I will remember Jazmine, Pattie, Jeremy, Jaxon, Ryan, Scooter. I'll remember the first time I watched Never Say Never and his videos.

I felt so close to him. Pride, passion, love, all his learning. So many memories, so many dreams, so many emotions will come to me while tears are falling down from my eyes. I'll remember when Justin put on his "I LOVE MY BELIEBERS" shirt. I'll remember every sentence, all his mistakes. Then my grandchildren will come to me and they'll ask what happened. I'll smile and tell them: "This boy was the first boy I ever loved. He taught me that dreams do come true if you only keep dreaming and work hard to achieve your dreams. He taught me to help people in need, he taught me that all of us are beautiful. How much it hurts me, i'm still gonna be happy." I will look through window and say "Goodbye Justin. I will always love you and I will never, ever forget you."

Well, thanks for reading. Bye-bye :)

Brokenhearted.

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. 

That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. 

They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. 

After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this.

Why do we fall for someone, who really isn't for us? Should we blame ourselves for falling the wrong one? Or should we blame the one we fell for, because they made us believe that they are the right one for us? NO. Don't blame anyone. There's no wise word to stop the bleeding. But always remember what doesn't kill you make you stronger. Sincerely, me. That's all for today. Assalamualaikum and bye-bye stalker. Thanks reading.

I'm sorry.

Cute kittens!

Random Raya.

Assalamualaikum and hye stalker. I'm wordless. So... I'll post random pictures. 

 

 K That's all for today. Assalamualaikum. bye-bye and Happy Eid Mubarak :)